Monday, January 10, 2011

Absence

I told another lie today and I got through this day. No one saw through my games, I know the right words to say. Then someone tells me how good I look, and for a moment, for a moment I am happy. But when I'm alone, no one hears me cry.
I need you to know, I'm not through the night. Some days I'm still fighting to walk towards the light. I need you to know, that I'll be okay. Together we can make it through another day.
I don't know the first time I felt unbeautiful the day you chose to leave me. What I do know is how I changed my life forever, I know I should know better. There are days when I'm okay, and for a moment, for a moment I find hope. But there are days when I'm not okay and I need your help, so I'm letting go. You should know you're not on your own, these secrets are walls that keep us alone. I don't know when but I know now together we'll make it through somehow.