Sober

I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest or the girl who never wants to be alone.
I don't wanna be that call at 4 o'clock in the morning cause I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home. The sun is blinding, I stayed up again. I am finding, that's not the way I want my story to end. I'm safe, up high, nothing can touch me. But why do I feel this party's over? No pain, inside, you're my protection. How do I feel this good, sober?
I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence. The quiet scares me cause it screams the truth. Please don't tell me that we had that conversation. I won't remember, save your breath, cause what's the use? The night is calling and it whispers to me softly come and play. Ya, I am falling and if I let myself go, I'm the only one to blame.
I'm coming down, spinning round, looking for myself...